I am so tired of letting down the people I love,

Tired of turning my eyes blankly to up above.

The pain is becoming too much to bear,

And no one can say the words that I need to hear.

I need someone to tell me that I'll be okay,

Someone to tell me they are here to stay.

This is truly my only wish,

But instead I find myself feeling that I wouldn't be missed.

Suffocating as I sit here alone,

I go through the motions, with these feelings that I own.

Fear and anger have overtaken my brain,

And though I try to move past it, it's always the same.

I put on the façade, the mask I must wear,

And walk past these people who are all unaware.

The lies have begun to own my life,

Causing even more unnecessary strife.

I walk through the church I once called my home,

And once again I am overcome with the feeling of being alone.

This place which once brought smiles, now it brings tears,

It was once a sanctuary, it used to house all of my fears.

Now I've lost heart, and my God,

For Him I would trade anything, I would battle any odd.

I would do anything for just one kind word,

The kind that I used to pretend I had not heard.

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Love Always, Nicole