I'd rather forget and not slow down
Than gather regret for the things I can't change now
If I become what I can't accept
Resurrect the saint from within the wretch
Pour over me and wash my hands of it
Than gather regret for the things I can't change now
If I become what I can't accept
Resurrect the saint from within the wretch
Pour over me and wash my hands of it
So many times in our lives we are faced with one question: what now?
That is the question I am faced with today.. what now? What is going on with my life at this moment? Well at this moment I am sitting on my bed in tie dye pajamas listening to the poetic sarcasm of House M.D and every few minutes I hear the laughter of my baby brother. I am safe and comfortable. I'm texting my boyfriend and waiting for an instant message. Today was long and stressful and tiring for reasons that I cannot control; I had a broken oven, two broken proofers, had to cover an incredibly inconvient break, oh and I spent a good percent of my time thinking about things that have nothing. Thinking can be an evil passtime. It is like a vicious virus, it sparks a small thought that grows into a huge one. It becomes all I can think about.
There is something I can't stop thinking about it: what now? I have worked at a supermarket for four years. I have a mediocre GPA and a even less appealing resume. I haven't done anything with my life. So what now, where do I go for now?
Anyways, different rant! Why are we all so damn interconnected now? Literally..everything is instantaneous. It's insane! Texts. Instant Messages. Email. Facebook. Twitter. "All in the palm of your hand". Well maybe I dont want all the demands of having the whole world in my hands. Maybe I want to pick up the phone for once. Oh and of course now I have a kindle, aka the best electronic device...except it has one click payment..aka it only takes me one minute, one frigging click, to spend like 15.99 on a book I have never heard of but that has a pretty little girl on the front cover.
So yeah.. that's today's rants.
That is the question I am faced with today.. what now? What is going on with my life at this moment? Well at this moment I am sitting on my bed in tie dye pajamas listening to the poetic sarcasm of House M.D and every few minutes I hear the laughter of my baby brother. I am safe and comfortable. I'm texting my boyfriend and waiting for an instant message. Today was long and stressful and tiring for reasons that I cannot control; I had a broken oven, two broken proofers, had to cover an incredibly inconvient break, oh and I spent a good percent of my time thinking about things that have nothing. Thinking can be an evil passtime. It is like a vicious virus, it sparks a small thought that grows into a huge one. It becomes all I can think about.
There is something I can't stop thinking about it: what now? I have worked at a supermarket for four years. I have a mediocre GPA and a even less appealing resume. I haven't done anything with my life. So what now, where do I go for now?
Anyways, different rant! Why are we all so damn interconnected now? Literally..everything is instantaneous. It's insane! Texts. Instant Messages. Email. Facebook. Twitter. "All in the palm of your hand". Well maybe I dont want all the demands of having the whole world in my hands. Maybe I want to pick up the phone for once. Oh and of course now I have a kindle, aka the best electronic device...except it has one click payment..aka it only takes me one minute, one frigging click, to spend like 15.99 on a book I have never heard of but that has a pretty little girl on the front cover.
So yeah.. that's today's rants.
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